The kids were so good

The littles and I went to Costco yesterday. Never mind that it took us almost an hour to get ready/pack. The diaper bag was totally empty and needed to be restocked...not sure if potty training Samson will make my life easier or not. The kids were so good all the way through the store. Little miss slept in the moby the whole time and little mr ate all his samples happily and gave valuable input to the shopping. Ice cream (yogurt)! coffee! (hot cocoa)! He also got a drum (dishwasher tab container). So good day!

Had to share..

Umm don't ask. ;)

Just another Monday

Today is my only day this week where I have nothing planned. I live for days where I can stay home all day with the littles. Today Sammy is working on his colors.

Easiest Bread EVER!

Yummy Crusty Bread...  from Sarah!

Before you even get started know it takes 12-18 hours to rise!

3 cups flour
1 3/4 teaspoons salt
1/2 teaspoon yeast
1 1/2 cups water

In large bowl mix dry stuff. Add water and mix it up.

Cover bowl with plastic wrap and let rise for 12-18 hours.

Heat oven to 450 degrees. Put cast iron pot into oven and heat the pot for 30 minutes. If using Le Cruseat wrap the top knob with foil. Sucker will melt.

While waiting for the pot to heat, empty dough onto heavily floured surface. I highly recommend cutting board so you can easily drop the dough into the Hades hot pot.   Shape into ballish shape. Sprinkle with flour and cover with plastic wrap.

Remove hot pot from oven. BE careful! It is so hot. Drop dough into hot pot. Cover and bake in oven for 30 minutes. Remove lid and cook for 10 minutes. Remove and enjoy.

Happy Changes

I can't believe how long its been since I have blogged. Miss Shirley wasn't even born yet. Now she is 4 months old. Her birth was great. Loved my repeat csection. 

 

 

 and I am still getting back into my pre pregnancy size. 

10 more pounds.

Now I can't even imagine what it was like to not have her. 

She really is totally perfect. She hardly ever grumps and has the chubbiest little legs in the whole world. (93 percentile baby!) I do get some of the blame for that. 

She whimpers and she gets to nurse and get momma to herself.

And we are now in our own home. 

IT IS SO NICE. 

We picked out everything in the remodel so of course I love everything. I am decorating the walls slowly but surely. It's small and so perfect for us. I really appreciate the smallness. It makes me rethink everything I own and makes me purge a lot. The thrift store is always happy to see me. Its a two bedroom but its 1200 square feet so BIG bedrooms. I have been using the kitchen so much. I didn't have counters in my old house so its amazing all the things you can do with the littles on them. 

 

Summer is pretty much over and we spent a lot of days running around outside. The property is fenced so Sammy can basically run around and chase the dog to his hearts content.

 

 I have been working about 5 hours a week. Going up to 15 next week and watching two girls for some extra money. They are sweet and have a blast at my house even though I am always afraid they are bored. 

I am out of survival mode with the kids. Starting to feel like Samson and Shirley have a schedule I can predict. I go places with both of them. I have a double stroller so I have no excuses. I still dislike going grocery shopping with them both so I try to leave Sammy at his cousins house. Sammy is outgrowing his naps which is bittersweet since I LOVE napping. Casey is still not healing but we are learning ways to deal with it. We know his limits and try to stick to them. He helps as much as he can and for that I am so thankful. I am working on keeping the house more tidy. Having someones elses kids over REALLY motivates me. My momma told me its house KEEPING not mess it all up and catch up. I keep on telling myself that. I am so messy and I fight it constantly. I like it tidy so I need to keep it that way. My house has been tidy now for 6 days. Gold star for this momma.

Lost a love

As a christian I am supposed to confess my sins. So here goes over the past six months I have really lost my love of bible reading. I really have no one to blame but myself. I pooped out somewhere when I had completed approximately 33%. I am pretty sure it coincides with Casey's car accident but I am not sure. Which really is horrible. What now that the going gets tough I stop reading the directions god gave me to read? Horrible. Inexcusable. Now when I do any of my bible reading I have to really force and am just hoping its over. How awful is that? I am going to change this. Not really quite sure how yet. But I am thinking about trying using an actual bible and not my iPhone. Maybe that would help? I know prayer will help too. My paper bible is packed away but tonight I will do it on my iPhone and really relax while I read and hope my love comes back.

I just don't think you understand

Warning. This is not a positive post. Its the 29th and Christmas decorations are put away. This is the earliest I have ever put away Christmas. Well away in boxes in my living room, that counts for something right? I can't actually lift them or the tree because every time I lift something my abs hurt. I guess this is a pregnancy side effect I don't remember from Samson. So whenever someone comes over I have them carry my laundry upstairs or the vacuum. Weird huh? Welcome to my home please carry this into my messy living quarters, also could you close your eyes so as not to see all the laundry and toys everywhere? K Thanks. Normally I love Christmas and keep it up as long as possible. I think this year I just want time to go by faster. I hate feeling that way. I want to appreciate every moment and day with my family and my pregnancy but I just can't keep this anxiety at bay. I got diagnosed with ppd in the form of anxiety and I am like 99% sure it is tied into my hormones because when I am breastfeeding or pregnant it really roars its ugly little head. And I used to just take that little happy pill but not when I am pregnant. Not too mention Casey's back isn't getting better. It just isn't. I just cry about it which I am sure solves absolutely nothing but hey I can cry if I want to, I am pregnant. When people say oh I have back problems etc. I can't do x y and z. I just don't think you understand. I just don't think you understand that if he picks up Samson he limps for two days. I just don't think you understand that if we go the grocery store on a Saturday he can't go to church on Sunday because he is in too much pain. Or everyday after work he can't move. He has to prioritize everything. My husband is not a wimp. He has done a lot of things in his life and not one of them is "wimpy." When he got a migrane a few weeks ago I basically had a breakdown because now he can't even sit up and keep an eye on Samson so I can get ready for work. I am not even going to get into the elephant in the room that is my husbands granny.  I don't want to dishonor her and talk about her on the internet. Plus honestly you just wouldn't get it. You have to really know her, like live with her, to get her. I think all people should have to take care of an elderly person one time in their life. I have done two. Its good for you. LOL! Hopefully she will be in a home soon or I am moving to a hotel room in my in-laws house. I have given enough and can't give anymore. I have a job, I am growing a baby in my tummy and I have a toddler. I haven't enough energy to go around. Plus I am only supposed to have one cup of coffee a day. ONE CUP! My new years resolution is to stop saying yes.  I think too highly of myself. I think I can do more than I really can. No, honestly I did pray about this decision. I followed where God was leading my heart. I thought God was leading me to stay here and care for Granny. I think I still do. Lesson in humility, forgiveness, patience maybe? Not quite sure. Maybe after its all over it will be clear. I am pretty new to this whole praying for guidance thing. Do I need more faith in Gods plan?